Discovering more about myself

So I've been flicking through a few other 'slaves' blogs lately, and its interesting to know how other submissives write about how they feel and the things that they have done to them. It makes for an interesting perspective on my own position, and things I hope that come from my own training.

There are plenty of slaves out there that enjoy more than a little bit of pain, and it sorta made me realise just how much I fall into the same boat, like a lot more than I realised. For example, last night after I got home, I did a little tidying up, but the house wasn't spotless as it should have been, so when Mistress got home I was given a mildly severe attack with the whip. When Mistress comes at me with the whip though, she makes a game of trying to hit the exact same spots over and over, so if I get 20 hits, then usually that means two spots on my ass will get 10 hits each, so by the time that same spot gets a flogging over and over, I'm usually screaming into the pillow or mattress in pain, but afterwards I usually find myself with a big, hard, pulsing erection (that's when I'm not wearing my lock) and I find myself admiring the red marks on my ass in the mirror - I love it.

So that has pretty well confirmed it for me, I am much more of a masochist than I first thought. But its more than just the pain, its just being abused in general that I think does it for me. Again, reading some other posts from other submissives, hearing them talk about how their 'tops' push them around, pull their hair, slap them in the face so hard that hours later they still feel the sting and think about why they were punished. If it weren't for my lock I would be hard at the thought (so instead I try to get hard and the spikes push hard on the base of my cock, causing me more pain, which makes me want to get harder!).

In conclusion, I don't think there is really too much of a point to today's post, just wanted to share some thoughts with you. Hope you found them interesting!